Category: Depression

I WANT TO BE HAPPY

I want to be happy . This is a statement that comes from the lips of some of the depressed people that I have encountered.I want to laugh from my heart not the shallow kind of laughter that you laugh only with your face showing your teeth yet there’s no joy within , I crave a hearty laughter .I crave peace, the child like kind of peace the kind that you don’t have a worry in the world. Not having to over think stuff or how my actions are interpreted by people around me . I want to be me ,I miss the person I was prior to all this madness the carefree person without a single worry .

Depression does have a tendency of letting someone feel lost in a sea of emotions. Its like a cloud of heaviness that shadows every move you make there to remind you that you don’t deserve to be happy . A constant reminder of what happened it sort of pulls you back every time you try to wiggle out of the feeling.

According to research there are many possible causes of depression, including faulty mood regulation by the brain, genetic vulnerability, stressful life events, medications, and medical problems. It’s believed that several of these forces interact to bring on depression . Good news is you can manage the depression it doesn’t have to rule over your life.You can take back the reigns and be the captain of your ship. It might not be easy but it can be done

A person who is born with his both his eyes fully functional then , unfortunately loses his eye sight can learn to move around using his ears . Using echo produced by still objects he can estimate how close or far away an object is .He was not using this part of the brain even though it was always there prior to losing his sight .Am sure he did not even know it was possible to move around  using his ears . This goes to prove that an old dog can indeed learn new tricks. We often hear that the brain cannot grow or change this right here proves otherwise.

In this line of thought I think its only fair to say that the brain can unlearn the unhealthy thought patterns that lead to depression. Whether the depression has been caused by  genetic predispositions or stressful life events.  Am not saying it is easy all I am saying is if a blind man can learn to use his ears to move round then there is hope for you to learn or relearn  how to be happy . You can learn to spot out the unhealthy thought patterns that lead to the feelings of depression .

My journey with Depression

Depression, according to google is a mood disorder that involves a persistent feeling of sadness and loss of interest. It is different from the mood fluctuations that people regularly experience as a part of life.

For me it was something quite weird I had only read about it I never thought that I would ever face depression since am naturally a bubbly person and I was a psychology major at that time you’d think I would have known better than to actually allow myself to go down the slippery slope of depression right?  but when it hit me whoa…. the textbooks dint do justice to the definition of depression I guess I  got to do practical’s of what I was studying.

 First and foremost I had weird feeling in my tummy  like I had  taken lots of water and it all went to  the lower part of my belly all at once  . it’s like my tummy  was bloated all the time and  I had  no appetite whatsoever .

Then there was this feeling in my chest a heaviness that made me feel empty an empty heaviness . I know it’s an oxymoron but yeah it was a combination of those two feelings at the same time.

Then the mind. Lord have mercy *insert Madea voice * This was the place where the greatest battle was.  It’s like having a thousand tabs open at the same time.  And on one tab I’d replay on repeat the scene that led to all this madness over and over again . But the thoughts that really plagued my mind was what will people think. That they’ll how naïve and stupid I was to have not seen it coming. These thoughts crippled me with fear. So I made it my purpose to fake it till I make it. So I’d smile on que crack jokes and  I’d work so hard  to  prove to everyone that I was okay .The problem with this system was that I was not putting in the work  needed to actually heal my emotions . I avoided  processing my emotions I figured if I ignored my emotions  long enough they’d sort themselves out magically .So in my opinion this fake it till you make it mantra is BS at least where depression is concerned  

Another mantra that doesn’t work is time heals all wounds this is not entirely true. Think we should add it heals all wounds depending on what you do with the time. Now all the above experiences happened in my body at times simultaneously. Other times I’d experience one  or two of the experiences described above at  a time .

Good news is that it is possible to conquer depression others have done it and am sure that you can also be among the many that have. Unfortunately   you cannot wish away depression you have to be intentional about healing you have to put in the work.

YES IT GETS BETTER .YES YOULL SMILE AGAIN .YES YOULL GET TO BE HAPPY AGAIN.

I WANT TO BE HAPPY

I want to be happy . This is a statement that comes from the lips of some of the depressed people that I have encountered.I …

My journey with Depression

Depression, according to google is a mood disorder that involves a persistent feeling of sadness and loss of interest. It …